Our little secret

This past weekend my husband and I were celebrating our niece's first birthday in NY, which was certainly enjoyable. What nobody knew, though, was that this weekend was also a bit of a celebration for our immediate family, too. I couldn't help but smile to myself as I thought about the discovery I had "made"; after over a year of hoping and waiting, I am pregnant. This still feels rather surreal, actually. I mean, every month I'd get my hopes up, only to have them dashed, and now, well, now my hopes are a reality.

I guess, too, I'm just amazed about what's happening even though there aren't any outward physical signs. To think that there's a life growing inside me at this very minute.... Words can't even explain how that makes me feel.

I'm so excited that I want to tell everyone right away, but, on the other hand, I know that we should wait to share the news. Plus, it's fun knowing that only Scott and I know; it's better than an inside joke that couples share. This is a new life, and a new chapter in ours, that only we know about (at the moment).

Scott's reaction was certainly better than I could have expected; he's excited! Granted, I figured he would be when the time came, but his affectionate teasing and pet names now reference the pregnancy (and anyone who knows him well knows that his teasing truly is affection). Course, there's also a twinkle in his eye that suggests he's happy and excited about the news.

Now the hard part will be waiting to share this with friends and family. Guess they'll have to learn of all the updates in retrospect, since they won't officially learn of it for a few months.