What I'm about to write might come as a shock to all of you (sarcasm intended), but I am not, nor will I ever be, a fashionista. Try as I might, I just don't quite get it.
This isn't to say that I don't WANT to get it; I just don't. Growing up, we didn't go shopping just for fun, and we certainly didn't shop all the latest brands or styles. And for some reason, back then, it never phased me. I was always comfortable in my brandless clothing.
It hasn't been until recently that I've actually been concerned (well, more-so than in the past) about clothes, which isn't necessarily a good thing. I guess it's because I have several well-dressed, stylish, trendy friends who just always look good. Being around them makes me want to look good, too. (Yes, the girl who lives in workout clothes actually wants to look put together, at least on occasion.)
The problem is that I see what others are wearing, or what's in an ad or magazine, and I want to wear the same thing. But then, when I search for such an outfit, I either can't find it, or when I try it on, it just doesn't feel like me. It's almost as if I'm trying too hard. So of course, I resort to the same-old, same-old, which sometimes just seems so "blah".
That's not the only fashion impediment I've encountered in my quest to get it; I also hate spending money on clothes (though I'll spend money on items for the house-- go figure), and I'm not exactly sure of my size.
Spending money: I think because I'm so uncertain about what I should be wearing, I'm really hesitant about purchasing clothing for myself. Maybe it's a commitment issue (who has commitment issues with clothing?!), but I wonder why I'm going to spend $$$$ on something that I think I like, but I'm not overly confident that I do. (Does that make any sense? Or am I just some oddball when it comes to fashion?) Part of that has to do with sizing, though; take, for instance, a couple pairs of pants that I bought at Ann Taylor last year. I bought my usual size, even though they did feel a little looser than I thought they should. (The smaller size was definitely too small.) I really like the pants, but now I wonder if maybe they just don't fit quite right. I don't want to not wear them because I spent some money on them, but on the other hand, do I really want to wear them if they don't fit quite right? Oh the angst! (Maybe this is the heart of my clothing woes!)
What it all comes down to, really, is this: learning to be comfortable again in my style choices, regardless of whether or not they're on trend. After all, I know for a fact that my friends aren't friends with me for my style!
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What it comes down to is hiring me to go shopping with you!! Problem solved lol. :-)
You know we've had this talk many a time. :) I love you just the way you are but totally understand the sentiment and desire. For what it's worth, I always think of J Crew when I think of you with a little Banana thrown in.
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